Trying sompin new

You know you are

Baby you know you are

Compromised by self interest

Fellating your sense of being

On top o the heap

Baby you know what I say is true

You think you are the one

And only one

Sad to see the others go on below

When you know for sure you

Are numeral Uno

The whole world is at your fingertips

Pick it up

The mantra keeps the doubt fairies

From flying to close

Baby you know you are

Compromised by self interest

Fellating your sense of being

On top o the heap

But what kind of claim to fame

Is being on top o the heap

This pile of shit

Is the measure of your accomplishment

How high can you be

Being just another soul on the heap

Chris McQueeney    4/6/15

Life is a trippy thing. What I thought of as insurmountable obstacles were actually just blips on the map. I thought the mental health regimen, that I was compelled to be involved in, hamstrung my life. I was wrong...the regimen was the only consistent thing in a life riddled with inconsistency. Goes to show that I may not always know what is best for myself. I am going to get back into writing every day, I have been slacking. What a thing to have in my life, this writing. Tomorrow I am going to write about the biggest failure of my adult life, and how I handled it. I am going to open myself up and put it down in black and white......................