You held me

Harmless

Have you ever had an itch

You just can’t scratch

Like a cat in the sun

You stretch to get that last ray

Just a little more you think

Arm yourself with the concept

Of total fulfillment

Go on trying to get that

Livin life in which

You to the extreme

Give it up to me

To find my place in this

Your schrade cuts me up

And down in and inside out

Like that cat stretching fourth

Your claws rip without warning

That one’s gonna leave a mark

And I thought you harmless

What a fool am I

To think that of you

You have no reason to be gentle

And every excuse to be harsh

And still I thought

You harmless but I

Have been known to

Believe what I see at first glance

Still my racing heart

You stood there in the light

So ephemeral

Diaphanous your beauty

Flutters in the gentle breeze

And I thought you harmless

Still my racing

Mind your manners

Are you so harsh as to

Not see in me

That which I wish to show

You

Diaphanous though your beauty may be

Your claws are sharp

And still I thought you harmless

Your beauty masking

A sharpened heart

Willing to cut outside of the lines

You

Took me for a midnight ride

Down lanes less traveled by the wary

And still I thought you blameless

And you were

At least that is what I have been lead to believe

Chris McQueeney    11/30/14

Image credit http://rayneralencar.deviantart.com/art/Harmless-276373946

Saturday morning

Two way street

Living the life of Riley

I just might be

Going in the wrong direction

It takes a bigger man than I

To do all there is to be

Going in the right direction

Living life and smiling

I just might be

Going the right way in the wrong direction

Chris McQueeney    11/28/14

I am with my children at their mother's home. They are amazing little creatures. I love them with my whole heart...If I have the oppertunity to be with them I do...this time last year I was not able to be near them and it broke me apart...I am grateful to have them in my life.

the wind in your wings

I live in a world
That may be small
To you
But is bigger than I can take
Put your considerable tallents
On the firing line for a moment
Tell them what you think
Is your oppinion as important
As you feel
Or is it just wind whistling in the trees
You will find out pretty quick
If you actually put yourself out there
If you do put yourself out there
You might just find out
How kind people actually are
I live in a world
That is bigger than I can take
Why dont you lighten it up for me


Chris McQueeney 11/28/14

Happy Thanksgiving

Own Filth


Why do you
have to be
so

Why do you
have to be so
fucking raciest

we don't need
your type around
these Parts

Doing just fine
thank you very much
you hypocrite

Forever espousing
the so called failings
of  others

while spilling your
own filth
on everyone

You are the one
who's creed we
definitely don't need


Chris McQueeney    11/26/14

This goes to all those who have a problem with another race or creed. There is a lot of blatant racism going on on both sided of the equation. I don't know enough about the death of that black man to argue with any credence...but it doesn't take an expert to decipher that both sides of this situation are fueled by anger and resentment. No person should be treated any differently due to the color of his or her skin, white or black...we are like fifty years away from the civil rights movement, we should be beyond this! On this day of our Thanksgiving I am grateful for many things and one of those things is the fact that I dont have to riot to make my point herd, all I have to do is type, but I am typing to a small croud. Happy Thanksgiving!!!

    

Only in my dreams

I have had your song stuck
In my head
All day
There is no way
Around it
It has to play
Over and over
All day
It would seem
From your words
You are only in my dreams


Chris McQueeney.  11/26/14

little ditty

At times

I hate having my brain

At times

It makes me insane

At times

I try to work my way around it

But find

I am stuck with it

I hate having my brain

At times

It is a pain that

I find

No way around

Chris McQueeney    11/24/14

Good morning blogger land how are you today? this was just a little ditty that I put together yesterday. It is true though that my brain plays havoc with me at times, a lot of times. but like I told my sister I'll be ok..........

A piece of me

Real and true

I see things

At times I try to hide

That fact from the outside

World

I hear things

At times I try to hide

That fact from the outside

World

I live in a world

Where things are transitory

Not always real

Or true

How does one function

When life sends you messages

That just are not

Real

and

true

Chris McQueeney    10/29/14

One side effect of the brain trauma that I suffered is that I see and hear things that are not there,,,it is a scary thing to have your perceptions be false. I now take medication for the hallucinations and it seems to work well. It is also a hard thing to admit to people. I don't want to be treated like there is something wrong with me, but there is. For the most part the reception that I have received since I started being more open about my struggles has been positive. I cant take back the brain trauma nor can I go through life acting like it didn't have an effect on me, I tried that and it didn't work very well............... 

The mag 247

Just So

She walks in twilight

Rather than day

Mid afternoon rays just

A bit to much

She likes dew on the leaves

The soft light strikes it

Just so

Offers up a particular glow

Just so just so

Just so

She walks in twilight

Rather than night

Nights dark rays subtle

Softened as she walks

Past twisted trees

Like goalposts they stand

Against night’s encroachment

She walks in twilight

Rather than day

The light is just so

Just so just so

Chris McQueeney    11/23/14

Image credit and the inspirator for the prompt are over at The Mag go check out what they have up to offer

HoleDigger

HoleDigger

Whisky jigger

Gin liver

HoleDigger

Watch his new home

Deeper and deeper

Just an evening out

Is all they will say just an evening

For him more like a month or six

What’s on the menu today HoleDigger

You got a whisky jigger dancing to your tune

Or is it that Gin that’s givin you that vacant grin

We’ll have to wait and see,

 Not too long cause you sure aint got it in ya

Ta wait

Watch him shovel through the carpet

There aint no tar pit just a  

Straight shot

Through to his bottom

Might be a trite bit shallow for some

Just a bit too goddamn deep for others

Not always fun bein a prospector

Thinks HoleDigger

As he plants a boot on another shovel full of soul

Chrisw McQueeney    1/22/14

Spent the weekend with my children and had a good time,,,have to say thanks for the rides that people give me in support of me getting to see the little buggers...It has only been fourty five min but I already miss them. the next I get to see them will be on  thanksgiving. then I will hqave two days and two nights with them. They actually get this whole week off of school. I seem to remember having to go the week except for thanksgiving, but I guess budget issues change things for kids now a days....I dont think it is a bad thing because even though they have fewer days they are more advanced than we were at the same age.

Who would you be? would you step up or slink away

What would I

If god were sitting

Next to you

On the bus one day

Would you say hello

Or would you turn your cheek

And act like you didn’t see him

What if you knew who it was

Would you pepper him

With question after dumb question

Why god why did you

Why didn’t you,

Or

Would you play it cool

And let him tell you

What he would

Prophecy or proclamation

Taking it all in like a

Divine puppet

Modern day prophet

What if God rode

Next to you and didn't

Say a word

Just smiled at you sadly

Would you tell him your sins

Would you expose the deep dark

Unload on him

Or would you tell him

Of the blessings of your life

Those things you are oh so grateful for

Would you thank god for another breath

One night I asked god to save me for my children

I don’t think I could survive another prayer like that one

What would I

What could I

What have I

What should I

What will I

Chris  McQueeney    11/20/2014

Another one of those days

Wall punch your way

A friend asked me today

What love meant to me

And what I had to say

             About it

I drew a blank

And I have to thank you

For getting out of it-

What does love mean to me

Is it the thing that has

Caused me countless

Hours     of      misery

Heart ache and pain

         Eyes dribbling

Wall    punch    your    way

Through another day of 

love

       Or is it the other

Chest 

             constricting

Heart melting through your

     Fingertips 

                kind of way

Love is like an IV drip

Keeping me alive another day

        I like to think the latter

At least that is what keeps me

               Coming back 

       for more

Chris McQueeney    11/20/14

Sleep

I am feeling a bit off
just a bit off today
slept for a while
think I will sleep
a bit longer
I think sleep
 is way underrated
i think it is a blessing
in disguise as a
 pain in the ass

fillin it two fer today

near to center

We tend to like freaks

In this neck of the woods

They slink from

Corner to corner

Without even coming

Near to center

We tend a bit towards

Freakishness

Around these parts

See that’s my cousin over there

Hair’s white from a fright a while back

He begins the knight with a right nice tempo

Over there we got tommy two tone

Can’t sing worth a dam but when he’s up

Everyone’s up but when he’s down

You don’t even want to be around

We tend towards don’t play well with others

Around these parts

Around these parts

C

Chris McQueeney    11/17/14

It is false

Do not go gentle

Into that cold still night

There are things out there

That would raise the dead

Do not go gentle

To that cold dark place

If you only knew

What was ahead of you there

You would never

Do not go gentle

With the dark hand offered

To lull you along

It is false

Do not go gentle

Into that cold still night

Chris McQueeney 11/15/14

I go today to see my psych Dr and go over the medications that I am currently taking. For the most part I am happy with the regimen I am on...there are times though where I go into a dip, or flat spot and those are hard to live with...we will see if there are any tweeks to the meds......... 

Not so subtle

That’s all

You want

Me to be

Something

You want me to

Be something

That’s all

Just be something

Do something with

Your life

You say with that

Little sneer

On your lips

Crawling across your

Face

Like a wave your lips part

That’s all you have to do

To get me moving

Make something you say

Of your life

One day

Ok, still

You might not like it

But I will

Chris McQueeney  10/3/14


I am sitting here about to go to bed and I am just now posting on my blog. It was a lazy day of watching the Fringe on Netflix and not much else...so, from the tail end of a very lazy day hello, how do you do?
Ok there is my writing for the day. Deep hugh.............

Collaboration with Ben

We were in Foodland where pizza trees
battle steak bushes, or Ribeyesteaksismajorum
as scientists call it, for supremacy
the popcorn shrimp flowers are king
and Jello giants tremble by
popsicle plants near pudding stalks
higher than licorice grass.

© Ben Ditmars and Chris McQueeney 2014


Here is a little ditty that I helped write with one named Den Ditty...Ben is an awesome poet and an all around good guy! go check him out here

mostly Fiction

Skin deep

Inside we burn

For more

Twirling around the middle

Looking for a place

To land

Like a moth to a flame

We are attracted by its shine

Where you land makes no matter

For you will easily find your way

To the center of it all

Spinning and winning your way through

You find the shine doesn’t go all the way

To its core

More of a surface reflection

How disappointing that was

To find out after all you have been through

It’s beauty was only

Skin deep

Chris McQueeney    11/13/14

I am finding that it is a worthwhile challenge to write everyday and to put out a poem every day. As far as the poetry goes I don't necessarily write one every day but on some days I put together two or three maybe even more, so I stockpile them for rainy days, On some days the poetry I write is representative of how I am doing, while on others it is purely fiction...Mostly fiction though..............

More

More

Wild eyed we see

Inside the colored

Veil

As she dances

Too and fro

Marking her turns

Inside we burn for

More

Chris McQueeney    10/26/14

Good morning...I just recently started taking a new medication and it is kicking my ass. It is supposed to help me sleep, and it does that, but it doesn't like to let go in the morning's. So I wake up feeling tired and listless. I find that coffee helps with the listless feeling but I still have the tired med hangover. I am sleeping better, not waking up ten or so times a night. How do you sleep? Do you wake at night with a racing brain or do you sleep like a baby and wake feeling rested?

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Gentle now

Keep it clean

Gentle now he said

Must watch what we are doing

Killing with kindness takes a surer hand

Than just your average killing

Hold that smile no matter what

That’s right…no just a bit off

Don’t look so grim

As far as the world is concerned

If you are kind it is ok

Just a bit longer then you will be done

All the world is a stage

And you are an actor

Be in your prime

Gentle, be kind and you will find

It’s not that hard to say it with a smile

Just for now, maybe only for this one day

Mean what you say and say what you mean

Kill them with kindness and keep it clean

Chris McQueeney   11/11/14

Good morning to you out there! I am in a bit of a hurry this morning so no deep thoughts for the day...Have a good day.